Monday, February 25, 2013

February 25, 2012 | Post 20

I had no idea that it was going to be the best day of my life.
I had no idea he'd been shopping for a ring.
I had no idea he'd bought a ring.
I had no idea he'd asked for my dad's hand in marriage.
I had no idea he'd had a few foiled attempts at this day already.
I had no idea he was sweating hotdogs during this picture because I told him to take his North Face off, and when he did I tossed it on the ground in front of the glow-in-dark alien toys.
I had no idea this was in the pocket of his North Face.
I had no idea that he had been secretly saving money.
I had no idea he'd been deleting all of his phone calls with the jeweler, then "calling" about 25 different people after he deleted the jeweler call.  To fill back up his iPone "all calls" feed.  Because he knew I'd be suspicious if I saw an empty que. 
I had no idea he had had meetings at my friend's houses to make sure I'd like the ring.
I had no idea he was in touch with my best friend Lydia - all day long.
I had no idea Lydia was in Orlando, Florida, too.
I had no idea my mom was in on it - because I pressed her and hinted at it, and she shut down my guesses ;)
I had no idea that he knew me so well.
 I had no idea WHY he was so squirmy and quiet before the fireworks started.
I had no idea the situation I caused when I asked to wear his North Face because I was cold.
I had no idea how my heart would race, and my body would fall-apart, when he asked me to be his forever.
I had no idea the amount of feeling and capacity my heart had for pure happiness.
I had no idea a heart was capable of thudding so hard, so quickly, so long, without a person dying.
I had no idea that getting engaged was going to feel so different from talking about and "knowing" we were going to get married.
I had no idea I could possibly love a symbol of love so much.
I had no idea I could love another person so much.

 I had no idea.
 And I have a feeling, I still don't, really.
But he is my best decision.
And I have no idea how I get to be his,
and how he gets to be mine.
It's a very good thing.


  1. Such a good day. I'm glad my phone wasn't so malfunctioning then. ;-)

  2. Sooo very great!! :) and u don't know the joys to come too!! So exciting!

  3. What a beautiful reflection! I feel the same way about my husband too :)

  4. i love love love reading your love story & all the stories that that entails!

  5. shimmy shimmy cocoa pop...shimmy shimmy ROCK! I loooooooooove everything about this.